My SIL is suppose to have her baby tomorrow at 40+1. I'll never know being that pregnant. She is also having a boy, which is totally killing me. I feel this is a safe place where I can express my complete disgust with my in-laws. Two of the most pathetic, bottom feeding, welfare cheating, mooching people I know. Why do they get what they want and I get another baseline sonogram? Yep, I started today.
22 months of trying. 11 months of trying with meds. 2 failed IUIs. T wants to start IVF. The plan was that if this month didn't work, to have lap surgery and fix the left ovary. He thinks it's a waste of time and we should just start IVF. I'll be honest. I'm a little scared of IVF. It costs alot even with the amazing insurance we have. Our insurance isn't going to cover all the meds, so I expect at least a grand out of pocket for that. Then there is the risk of multiples. I don't know why I feel this way. It just feels so drastic. I think I also have doubt it will work. My body is in total revolt of being pregnant.
Then T and I got in a big fight on the way home tonight. I was bitching about the SIL and all the things that she gets to experience that I won't (natural birth, labor, etc). All I have is that I won't ever go past my due date. He starts in on the IVF. I say I need the surgery first. Every time I have a follicle on my left side, I feel like I'm being stabbed in the side. That's with only 1 follie, not multiples. That is going to lay me out. I'll be begging for pain killers and staying in bed. I'd rather get the thing fixed and have better chances all around. Yes, I understand that is another delay. Yes, I just want to be pregnant. There is no guarantee with any of it.
What do you think? Surgery or jump into IVF. I think I'm going to make T come to me with this week's appt. I told him he wouldn't have to go to another one, but I want him there to talk to Dr. L too.