Pure Torture

It hurts the girls to take off my bra. The seat belt in the car hurts them. And then as if on cue, the dog jumps into bed and I almost throw him against the wall because he lands on them.

Yesterday I was so damn dizzy. We were baking cookies and cookies and more cookies at the Elks Lodge. I was going to take a picture of all the cookies. But no - got dizzy and dropped my camera. I think it's a goner. The lens won't open or shut. Shit.

I plan on testing tomorrow at 12 DPO. All of this torture will be worth a BFP. That's all I want for Christmas.

When can I really POAS?

I am really praying that these new meds aren't playing mind tricks with me. All of the sudden, my usual prego symptoms hit me. My girls are freaking sensative and I am exhausted. When can I really POAS and know I'm not too early? I'm 10 dpo today.

I feel like I do when I am pregnant but I don't want to test to early.

Shot from hell

Ok, lasts months HCG shot was no biggie. This month, the nurse at the clinic did it. OMG! That was on Tuesday, I still have a whelp at the injection site. It's really bad because it is right where the waist on my pants hit and it hurts!!!

I swear this nurse was probably 12. I have been giveing myself shots for a month now, I think I can handle one more. Geesss...

I was hoping for better follies this month since the change in drugs. But the lining was way better, so there is my positive.

Last note, I've been on anitobiotics since Saturday for Bronchitis. I've been sleeping in my recliner for a week and finally got to sleep in my bed last night. Not T is starting to get the drainage. Poor boy, he's got work to do! hehehe

Dr. H

I guess maybe Dr. L is on an extended vacation in Vietname. No telling... Met with Dr. H again today. Right ovary, 16mm follie. Left ovary, 26mm follie. Linging 9.5mm, up from 6.5 last month.

Got my HCG shot today. I go back next Tuesday for P4 levels.

New Meds!

I had my date with the dildo cam this morning. Met with Dr. H again. No cysts, so we are good to go. We are switching to Femera and adding Menopur this month. We want more than one egg. Super Ovulation. Super Hormones. Super Bitch here we come!

I'm trying really hard to praise You in the storm

I just got home from the chiropractor - I was soooo out of whack. Before heading home, I swung by CVS to get some tests. Screw dollar store, I want to go somewhere I know for sure has them. Come home, pee on the stick, set it down. OH CRAP, I just started. And just wasted $5 on one stick.

I'm afraid

I have to get one thing out of the way... I am suppose to POAS on Friday (CD 28). I thought I had more tests at home, I don't. So I stopped at two Dollar stores on my way home and they were both out. WTF! I guess that will keep down the urge to test early. My "twins" have started to get very tender. This could be a good sign.

Tim and I are afraid that our lives are going to really change and not for the better. I'm afraid that the tax reform Obama has spoken of is going to put my company out of business. We are very shaky right now as it is and I don't think we are strong enough to stand up to much more turbulence.

About a month ago, I went over our expenses and income. We could pay all our bills and still eat on one income. Would it be pretty? No, but we could do it. We are thinking of expanding our garden even more. We already took it up to 1200 sq ft this summer. My mom offered to deed me 2 acres. We could expand more, add a cow and chickens if need be.

Tim is so bummed. He's pouting. He said we might have to go pitch our tent and live on those 2 acres when we lose our house. There is nothing we can do to change it. All we can do is hunker down and pray for a quick 4 years.